Day 25

2338 Cal, 36.4 g of fat

Today was a odd day, I was really hungry all afternoon. Especially after my 6 km walk. So I ate 2 extra servings of pasta at dinner, which ended up really boosting my calorie count.

I am built like a God, Unfortunetly it's Buddha

I have a Buddha belly, and thighs, etc etc. And most of the time I can ignore/live with it. However today I realized that gravity is a b*tch to a buddha belly. You don't realize how heavy it is until you jump up and down and damn that hurts! The bounce back made it feel like my abdomen was going to rip away from my torso! I need to get a support garment for it if I ever plan to get rid of it!

And the opposite happens in the pool, the damn thing floats!

One day my Buddha belly will be gone, and in its place I will have a bunch of extra skin and probably a poochy ugly belly, but you know what I'll freaking take it! No offense Buddha but I would rather be built like a Greek goddess!

Day 24

1236 cal, 35 g of fat

It was a pretty normal day, I got in about 35 mins of swimming this afternoon, and almost got a walk done but was stopped by a major thunderstorm. It was pretty crazy watching the dark clouds come over the Lake and the visible line of rain poring down. Hopefully It will be nice tomorrow.

Living one day at a time

It is all I can really do right now. I can't allow myself to think to next week or next month or next year. I can only focus on the present. I can really only focus on surviving THIS MOMENT, THIS DAY. I am just focusing on remaining in my calorie range, and getting what exercise I can in. And hopefully with enough of these good days all racked up together I will accomplish my overall goal. I guess it is also true that if I screw up one day tomorrow is always a new day. I have quit so many times before because I screwed up after 5 days, 15 days, 3 weeks and I felt bad or guilty or that I failed. So I just let the bad days pile up on one another until there didn't seem to be a point to trying to eat healthier. A self fulfilling prophecy of failure. So I think that if I can rack all my "One Days" to equal 9 weeks, then I might be able to handle a bad day now and again. I need to succeed for awhile.

P.S. This is why I am posting all these annoying little Day 1 posts to keep myself honest.

Day 23

1470 cal, 40.8 g of fat

I am so glad it is the weekend. I am aiming to go swimming on Saturday, and walking on Sunday if the weather holds up.

Day 22

1817 Cal, 37.7 g of fat

40 min of swimming

Yesterday I had the day off and I did some garden work for my grandmother. At the time it really didn't feel like all that much activity. However today I feel like I have been run over by a steam roller. I hurt every where especially around my rib cage and the back of my thighs. It just shows you how much of a work out you can get when you don't realize it.

Day 21

1485 cal, 59.6 g of fat

Wow I sure racked up the fat grams today, but I am actually not that concerned about the fat count as much I as used to be (years ago). I think going too low fat just makes you feel hungrier.

So I am excited about my weight loss, that gives me a total of 14.6 lbs in three weeks. Wow I have actually kept at this for three weeks now without falling off the wagon. I know I am still in the Honeymoon phase, the hard work is just starting, but the small success encourages me to keep going.

My mom has reached a bit of a plateau right now, she was having histrionics over the fact she weight 5 lbs heavier in the evening then in the morning. I was finding it hard to talk her down from her anger. I know in a few weeks my body will slam on the breaks as well, and say "WTF feed me" too and I will also get upset, but I don't tend to shout it to the world. But I tend to be overall more laid back emotionally then my mom. I think she is just expecting too much from herself right now. She has done awesome, she is just seriously impatient.

Here is a Happy Elephant to share how I feel today!