And sadly they are both mine, well and there could even be a third one too. Okay not to bash myself about (which I am very very good at) too much but going clothes shopping is one of those experiences in which you are forced to see yourself and just how bad you look. I was out shopping today searching for a summer-ish dress for a family occasion. I probably could dig something wearable out of the closet but most of my dress up clothes are pants and blouses (and now I realize why, pants hid a variety of sins!) and I was really hoping to have something nice to wear that I look good in, so much for that hope.
I don't go clothes shopping all that often, usually only when absolutely necessary, or when something comes up, partly because of budgetary concerns but also because of what a depressing experience it is. I tried on at least 7 dresses and two skirt combos, and I wouldn't be seen in public in any one of them. First off white does not even begin to describe my lack of a tan, but since I have barely been outside this summer it is not a surprise, I usually am good with lack of a tan, I consider it skin cancer prevention but when trying on sleeveless dresses it isn't an asset. Secondly there is the back fat, big hips, huge belly, the bumpy thighs, the thick shoulders, the whole Una-boob that big women get with ill fitting bras. I should be glad at least that the dresses all fit me at least but the sad thing is I am like one size down from the only fashion available being a flowered mu mu!
This of course should be a screaming wake up call, yelling LOSE WEIGHT! LOSE WEIGHT! But why am I not hearing it. I have the desire but not the will yet. Must get will. Must get will power. Must find dress....
Well I will continue shopping mainly because I have this $25 gift certificate that expires on august 2 nd.
