The cold from HE double hockey sticks.....

Thats how us Canucks spell hell. Just a little FYI.

I have been laid up with a cold for 14 days now, it has thrown every symptom at me, exhaustion, sinus, headache, ear ache, and the loudest hacking cough you have ever heard. I am surprised I have not had complaints from my neighbors. My co-workers sure are sick of me, they have started calling me typhoid Mary, despite the fact that I am the only one that is sick. Anyways because of the fact I can't speak a full sentence without breaking into a fit of coughing, and the fact I spend every spare minute I can trying to rest, the gym has been a no go. But thanks to intermittent nausea and lack of appetite, I am now down to 321.

I also had my Birthday. I am now 29 years young, and unlike most people coming close to their thirties, I am actually looking forward to it. I feel like I am finally getting my life together. I am slowly getting out of debt and building a financial future, and I feel like I am getting a handle on my obesity and that I am doing something about it. Now I had wanted to be under 300 by my b-day but that didn't happen. So I am continuing to strive towards it, but with no set time limit. It will happen when it happens. No undo pressure , no feelings of failure. I am looking at the last year of my twenties as a year to achieve a lot, to focus on myself and lay the groundwork for my next 30 years. I can't wait to get started once I get rid of this damn cold!

Some things you just don't need to see.....

I hate the entire wall, floor to ceiling mirror that the Gym or excuse me "fitness center" has positioned right in front of the cardio machines. So as I am huffing and puffing I get to stare at myself and see exactly what my body looks like when moving. It is already hard enough to get up the courage to go into the gym when you are morbidly obese, and get on the machines next to the very pretty skinny young 19 year old who has never had a weight problem in her life, but what has always helped is for me to stop thinking what I look like, think to myself "screw em" and just get down to business. That is hard to do when you get watch your thighs rubbing together in real time.

Now this isn't my regular gym, it is one of the ones that happen to be on my way home from work, so I thought I would pop in and give it a try, since I have access to all the ones in this particular chain in the province. Now I can understand having the mirror near the weights, where people may need to check their form, make sure they are positioned right etc. But in front of the cardio machines. Come on!