Sunday, June 29, 2008

Weighing in: 352

I would like to say several bad words about this number, but I will refrain. I can't believe I am up 5 lbs in one week, it is totally ridiculous! I didn't even HAVE that much food in the house to eat. This has got to stop. Immediately. I am almost right back where I started from my highest weight of 369 Lbs. To say the least I am not happy about that. July will be a whole new start. I am making a list of meals, and planning and pre-cooking as much as possible. I have printed off some blank calendars to help with meal planning, and exercise scheduling. I feel like I keep falling so far off the wagon I can't even hear the horses anymore. AHHHHHHHHHH

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Step away from the cereal box

"You have the right for your mouth to remain closed, you have the right to Not ingest all those calories"
I wish that would yell out whenever I went near a cupboard or the fridge. I am having the hardest time trying to get my eating under control. I think one of my big problems is that I am so busy at work that it is close to three o'clock in the afternoon before I get a chance to eat, and then by the time I get home from work it is at least 7:00pm and then I am absolutley starving so I will just shove whatever is edible to satisfy me for the moment. Uggg I can't stop it seems. I know I can, I just have to keep trying. What was even worse was tonight I got home and I was too lazy to go grocery shopping yesturday so I didn't have a lot in the house to eat. So good ol captain crunch (which I bloody very well shouldn't have in the house in the first place) was what I ended up eating untill my dinner cooked. So Dear Captain, after your box is empty I am saying good bye to you sailor and all of your shipmates. I have always loved cereal, it is my biggest snacking/comfort food. When I was on a previous weight loss effort, I was once told that when I had a big craving to "eat a box of fruitloops and call me in the morning". I think I took that comment a bit too much to heart! So I am swearing off cereal, sugary or otherwise, only my good ol standby Oatmeal is allowed in the house.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Weighing in: 347

Yep I gained 2 lbs this week, not the direction I go in. However I do have that handy little excuse for weight gain women have each month. So I will blame that. I could blame that BBQ I went to but that was only yesterday and I couldn't have consumed THAT many calories in a few hours.

Summer BBQ's are a big problem, not that I go to a lot, but all that food sitting out and the host saying "Eat Eat, I don't want to be left with all this food". It is hard to balance being rude not eating a lot and pigging out. I didn't do too badly though, I only had one hamburger, though I almost had another one and then stopped myself. But the tortilla chips were right in front of me. I don't even want to think about the amount of salt I must have consumed last night. When I woke up this morning I was actually swollen, I couldn't get my ring off my finger, and I swear when I poked my skin I could leave and indent. Plus I was absolutely starving. I worked all day and I wasn't going to drive all the way home (a neighboring city) and waste gas so I went shopping till the party so that was several hours.

So I will trudge along, I am sure next week I will see a downward trend on the scale.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Planning stages

I am a planner. I need something written down, in place so I will follow it. I am like this in pretty much all aspects of my life. I need to plan all the things I need to do on my day off, or they will not get done. So I isn't a surprise that I am floundering a bit in this new weight loss effort, I haven't planned anything, no lists, no expectations, so no progress.

So here is my plan (just the rough outline, details to come later)
  • enter all food in food journal (June 17-24)
  • start exercise 3x per week (June 24-July 1)
So I will work on that for the next couple of weeks, I am trying to create my healthy lifestyle slowly, make them become habits not just another fad.

This is a marathon not a sprint. So I am pacing myself.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Weighing in: 345

Well I am happy to announce I lost 5 lbs this week, I was fully expecting to gain or at least stay the same. I wasn't really trying this week, I was mostly trying to just get my head around the idea of weight loss by starting my blog. I didn't exercise and I didn't really watch my calorie count, I just ate the basic three meals a day and a couple of snacks. Well it is nice to start off with a small success. I hope once I start actually putting some effort into this I will continue to get good results. So now I am now 345 lbs, whoo hoo.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Trying new things

I have been on some kind of diet/weight loss effort since I was 4. At some point I probably have tried it all, groups, weight loss programs, trying it myself etc etc, but I have never written a blog . In my Internet wanderings I have come across several successful weight loss bloggers that I am a fan of. They are my "thinspiration" so to speak (yes I know I am using one of those popular slang terms) So I am hoping that by publicly airing this stuff (currently anonymously- with time comes courage!) and with absolutely no audience (LOL) I hope to keep my will power and my goals on track.

So lets define my problem, no I am not some skinny chick who imagines a muffin top in my size 0 jeans. I am 5'7 350 lb woman. Thats puts me into a size 28, or 4 XL clothing. I am vain, so yes part of this desire to lose weight is about looking good, but it is mostly about a desire to get healthy and stop watching life pass me by while I sit on the sidelines cause I can't fit my ass into the ride. So enough for tonight, its going to be a long journey so I need to keep some material for later use!