They Fit!

My new uniforms came in. And much to my excitement the 3Xs fit! I could hardly believe it. The pants are a bit snug but the tops are a decent fit. Since I carry a lot of weight around my hips and stomach I always end up with the tops being too loose at the shoulders but too tight at the hips, which is somewhat what the tops are like, but they are "unisex" design, and I guess men tend to be bigger in the shoulders.

When I ordered them I debated on what size to buy. I was worried that is I bought them too small and wouldn't be able to get into them for a long time, or never be able to get into them and have wasted that money. I was pretty excited that they fit.

I will still be wearing my 4 X uniforms until they are just too big to wear. Depending on what kind of state they are in I may have them taken in rather then just toss them.

Weigh in

Down another 2 lbs. yeah! That gives me a total of 44 lbs gone.

I have noticed I have been fairly consistant with my numbers, approx 2 lbs per week. I am greedy and want more of course but I am really happy that I am continuing to lose.

I am still feeling alot of anxiety about the upcoming holiday season. This week I have 2 dinners and 1 party to attend and I will be missing 2 of my regular workout times, so I need to fit some exercise in somewhere. I also need to fit in the grocery shopping, shoe shopping, laundry and grocery shopping in there and somehow work as well.

I had to haul around some really heavy stuff at work today and clean around them, alot of bending down and now my hip is really killing me. However the laundry area has never been so clean or so organized.

Thank God it`s Tuesday

I worked this Saturday (an especially crappy work day to, boy when it gets bad, it gets horrid!) So I missed swimming and Sunday I was basically recovering from Saturday even though my dog and I went for a hour long walk. Monday was especially hectic not only at work but after having to perform my civic duty and rush to the voting station to put my ballot in for the municipal election. So I hadn`t been in the pool since last Thursday. I have to say that it was the best 45 mins I have had all week. My hip was bothering me all day at work, lower back too, but as soon as I slipped into the water that pain eased up. I did my laps with no problem. It felt really good to be weightless, and to just concentrate on swimming. I was almost sad to get out of the water, and unfortunately the hip pain returned. I may have to finally suck it up and go to the Doctors and get it checked out, but I think as I lose weight it will improve. It could just be a pinched nerve.

Tomorrow, I enter where no weight loss blogger should go.....the buffet. It`s mums B-day and that is where she has chosen to go instead of us cooking a big dinner mid week. I am not going to deny myself anything, but I am not going to stuff myself either. I will have a bit of this and that, and enjoy it. I no longer want to associate food with feelings of guilt. I chose to eat it, I will not feel bad about it.

Tomorrow is also weigh in day.....Hoping for a two pound loss, I think i have worked it off.

Let them eat cake

"Let them eat cake"

At least I am pretty sure I won't be led to the guillotine for that remark.

For each employees birthday our Boss buys a cake. It is one of the few (only) outside your pay perks my boss does (we do not have an Christmas party or bonus, and if you are ever sick you don't get paid for it). I have learned to only get sick on my days off.

So anyways I had an itty bitty bit of the cake. I thought about not indulging, but I decided that if I wanted that piece of cake I was bloody well going to have it. I can not go through the rest of my life not having sweets or avoiding functions because food I "can't" have is there. I know it won't work, I will fall off the wagon and relapse so bad it will be like trying to decontaminate Chernobyl to get back on track.

So I consciously decided that I would have a piece. Now it was just a crappy grocery store cake so it's not like gourmet, it could have been better. But the point is that it was only ONE PIECE and it was a small one.

And I don't feel guilty.

Maybe I can stop emoting my food.

So let me eat cake

or off with my head!