Friday, September 20, 2013 Posting this now, even though it is 4 months later......

Friday, September 20, 2013

Well after almost a year hiatus on my mission to become healthy, I am back. I reached my highest weight ever 394 lbs sometime in February. I ate whatever the hell I wanted, in large quantities. I felt very negative, probably was depressed or close to it. All of my uniforms were to the point of ripping if I moved the wrong way. I generally felt tired and crappy. Maybe some of this had to do with it being winter, but mostly because I felt my life slipping by with so many things I would never get to do at 394 lbs. I was even researching weight loss surgery options, feeling like it may be the only way to go. I finally contacted my Doctors office and asked for a referral to a weight management clinic, and also to get some blood testing done, something I had avoided for far to long. If nothing else maybe I could be referred for surgery. It took almost 5 weeks to hear back from the clinic, which was a good thing, it gave me time to get my birthday out of the way, and all the cake associated activities. It let me step back and think for awhile, what I really wanted to do. Two days before my scheduled appointment I decided that was it I was going to start again. Start over because I can't live another day like this, because before I knew it another 10 years would go by and I would be in the very same position almost 400 lbs. I attended the first appointment of the weight loss clinic, which is covered by OHIP but is basically sparkpeople with a Doctor supervising. Lots of small meals, a decent calorie count, focusing on protein, get your exercise in etc. The only thing they don't really seem to do is put any focus on the emotional aspects of overeating behavior. But more on the clinic at another time.
So I have been working hard the last four months, and have lost 56 lbs. I only focus on the next 2 lbs. I can't think any larger then that. 2 lbs is doable. It is only 2 lbs.