Weekly recap

Because today was a holiday and I didn't have to work I keep thinking it is Sunday, which is really confusing me. The last week I feel I may have turned a corner, I feel like the light switch is back on.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday- ate fairly well but definitely needs improvement. relied to heavily on some food crutches, ie: peanut butter and rice cakes. Weighed in and down a pound.

Thursday- back on track food wise, but I need to stop buying rice cakes. oh and marshmallow bananas I love those candies so yummy yet so evil.

Friday- day off of work, had lunch out with my mom, though I was afraid of eating out, I didn't do too badly and still came within my calorie range for the day. Hit the gym and the pool.

Saturday- work but went for a nice walk in the evening.

Sunday - Hit the gym and had a great workout. Attended a virtual wedding party. We all hung out at a pub and watched a friend get married live over a webcam. I did eat out again but still maintained my calorie range. I wore one of my new shirts, and I felt pretty good, thought I looked okay until my friend posted the photos on face book, but I may be over critical of myself.

Monday- Happy Victoria day. Went on my first long walk with my dog, just over an hour and managed to make it home just in time before the rain hit. The trail was still a bit too soggy so during that part I ended up walking off trail a bit and along fallen trees. I really need to work on my balance, I was convinced I was going to fall and break something, or at least have to walk all the way home covered in mud. Thankfully neither occurred. Came way under calorie range today, weird it doesn't feel like I ate any less.

I started tracking everything again and it really has helped me feel more in control, but I am feeling that way in my non weight loss life. Circumstances at work have changed where a very stressful element has been removed, making my daily life better. Oh and water, I have jumped back on the water bandwagon.

Weigh in

Down another 2 lbs. yeah! That gives me a total of 44 lbs gone.

I have noticed I have been fairly consistant with my numbers, approx 2 lbs per week. I am greedy and want more of course but I am really happy that I am continuing to lose.

I am still feeling alot of anxiety about the upcoming holiday season. This week I have 2 dinners and 1 party to attend and I will be missing 2 of my regular workout times, so I need to fit some exercise in somewhere. I also need to fit in the grocery shopping, shoe shopping, laundry and grocery shopping in there and somehow work as well.

I had to haul around some really heavy stuff at work today and clean around them, alot of bending down and now my hip is really killing me. However the laundry area has never been so clean or so organized.

Weigh in - take that scale!

Down 3.4 lbs,

I am 0.6 lbs away from losing 40 lbs.

I would have loved to round the number down, to be able to label this post 40 lbs gone, but I haven't earned it, yet.

I did however say goodbye to the 340's, good riddance to bad rubbish.

The buffet, wasn't so bad, I didn't eat as much as I did in the old days, however I still ate too much. I only just went over my daily caloric intake today so overall not so bad.

Thank God it`s Tuesday

I worked this Saturday (an especially crappy work day to, boy when it gets bad, it gets horrid!) So I missed swimming and Sunday I was basically recovering from Saturday even though my dog and I went for a hour long walk. Monday was especially hectic not only at work but after having to perform my civic duty and rush to the voting station to put my ballot in for the municipal election. So I hadn`t been in the pool since last Thursday. I have to say that it was the best 45 mins I have had all week. My hip was bothering me all day at work, lower back too, but as soon as I slipped into the water that pain eased up. I did my laps with no problem. It felt really good to be weightless, and to just concentrate on swimming. I was almost sad to get out of the water, and unfortunately the hip pain returned. I may have to finally suck it up and go to the Doctors and get it checked out, but I think as I lose weight it will improve. It could just be a pinched nerve.

Tomorrow, I enter where no weight loss blogger should go.....the buffet. It`s mums B-day and that is where she has chosen to go instead of us cooking a big dinner mid week. I am not going to deny myself anything, but I am not going to stuff myself either. I will have a bit of this and that, and enjoy it. I no longer want to associate food with feelings of guilt. I chose to eat it, I will not feel bad about it.

Tomorrow is also weigh in day.....Hoping for a two pound loss, I think i have worked it off.

Pot luck early thanksgiving meal

I'm Canadian so my thanksgiving meal was only a week early! I was out at a pot luck party last night and I have to say I am pretty proud of myself. I had a little bit of everything but no massive quantities, and I didn't deny myself anything including that piece of pumpkin pie. Ummmm the food was so good, but I kept track of what went in my mouth, discreetly again thank you ipod. And I came under my caloric budget which is pretty awesome, if you add my swim yesterday afternoon I really had a great day. And it was also a card game and I won my money back! So overall an awesome day.

Stressing out over eating out

I'm going out for brunch tommorow, okay actually today since I am still up at this really late hour. I can't believe how much I am stressing about eating out. It is just one meal but I don't want to go becuase the calorie count is going to be horrendous unless I just eat 2 bites. I just know what it is going to be like, staring at the menu trying to pick the lesser evil....literally. As it is my choices are limited since I am such a picky eater, I don't like most of the items on most menus, and am usually stuck with either, pancakes, waffles or a basket of chicken fingers. Except for the concert last weekend where I only ate one slice of pizza and some popcorn, this is the first time I have been out for a meal at a resturant since I restarted.

I wish that I could have a relationship with food where it just came naturally instead of viewing it as my enemy, every bite guilt ridden or calorie laden and waist increasing.