very very very bad eating day

Well it all started off on the wrong food with breakfast, I didn't know what I wanted, and I didn't feel like cooking anything so I lingered in the kitchen and started popping anything in reach in my mouth. And this continued on all day. But nothing was satisfying me, I just wasn't eating what I wanted, but i didn't know what I wanted. ugggh! I think there are a few reasons why I had a bad eating day, I ended up working overtime saturday which just added to the overtime I racked up this week so I was exhausted today, I didn't even hit the gym or make any effort to preform anything but the most necessary functions. Also there was some emotional eating component involved.

But on a positive note, I could have just ignored my less then stellar behavior and skip tracking but instead I tracked it all, not until the end of the day (maybe if I had done it sooner I would have stopped, but I doubt it!) and the total wasn't pretty, but at least it was honest.

Tomorrow is a new day, I cannot erase the calories I consumed today, but I can control the ones tomorrow. One off day is not a disaster. Oh and I will be leaving work on time and get my butt to the gym tomorrow night.

Weigh in Wednesday

I got my reward! 4 lbs down. Down to 315.

That is one pound less then what I dropped down to in 2007 and I think that means I am at my lowest weight since 2001.

Had a great week, hopefully it will show on the scale

My weigh in day also happens to fall on my day off of work. I don't know if it is the fact that my schedule is different on Wednesdays, since I get to sleep in etc, I always find that on my day off I tend to retain water, I can't get my rings off easily, which doesn't bode well for the scale. But if I had a weight loss, I should still be down water weight, or no water weight.

But I did have a good week. I exercised, my calories were in or close to the upper range. I generally feel really good about my progress. My snacking was reigned in and rice cakes did sneak back in the house but they remained uneaten. And I am proud that I managed to pass by the banana marshmallows twice without buying them. I cannot have them in the house, it is way to easy to justify to myself that it is okay to have just one more. I swear my brain recognizes sugar like a drug.

Banned

Hear ye! Hear ye! These items are henceforth banned from the premises:

Peanut butter


Rice cakes (all flavors but especially butter toffee)


Marshmallow Bananas


Maria cookies


For crimes against Erin's healthy eating goals. The exhile begins immediately for an indeterminate period of time, when you are no longer as dangerous to said healthy eating goals the ban may be revoked.

Weigh in Wednesday

One pound gain. Considering the humidity and the fact it hit 32 degrees today (Celsius) I was swollen up this morning and was unable to get my rings off. I did have a few bad days this week, mostly at night with snacking. But it is time to start getting that little problem under control.

Up to 319 lbs.

Back to tracking and a change in tracking apps

I got very lax with tracking my eating for a few months. I was ball parking the figures in my mind, which might explain a very very slow weight loss. Now when I first got my i pod touch back in September I downloaded a free calorie tracking app called Lose it! which also has an accompanying website and forum I loved it at first especially since it had a stand alone calorie database but eventually I got bored with the app and found it had limitations as well as a flaw for me. Whatever exercise I logged it added the calories I burned back to my calories I could eat.

So when I put my foot down with myself and decided to start tracking again I downloaded the Sparkpeople mobile app. I have been a member of spark since 06, but like all things weight loss over the years I come and go with varying levels of commitment and success. I am really liking the app, I used to find their online calorie tracker too time consuming, but they have made changes to it and I am finding it more user friendly. The only problem I can see with the spark mobile app, is that you need to have access to the internet to be able to access the food database. Luckily most places I go (work, home, mum's) has a WiFi connection that I can use.

Now I am just waiting to see my results from all this good behavior and consistency. Have I mentioned how very impatient I am?

Down 2 lbs

I should have been ecstatic when I lost two lbs last night, but I wasn't. I wanted it too be more, I feel like it should have been more. Now I know that 2 lbs a week is a healthy weight to lose, but when I had gained the week before I felt that I should have lost that number as well to catch up. I still am being so on track and still feel like I am not getting the payoff yet. I need to take a breath and look at the long term picture. This is a marathon, I need to pace myself, I am still in the beginning miles and the finish line isn't just suddenly going to show up. Not only that I did have one bad night this week food wise that could have factored it as well.

Down to 318

60 lbs is nothing to sneeze at

I was reflecting on how I have been on track for a year. Finally a long period of time where I have been working in a positive direction. A few weeks earlier I had been calculating that if I had lost 2 lbs a week every week, I should have lost 104 lbs in that year, and I had only lost 60. Well If I could have shook myself silly I would have. It is 60 lbs less then last year, a year ago I believed that another failure was around the corner. That any minute another weight loss effort would be down the drain and I would gain whatever I had lost plus pack on more. It was a valid fear, it is not the first time that that scenario has occurred. But I managed to keep going one day at a time, and I am still doing that. So yes last year I only lost 60 lbs, but I gained so much more; I began to believe in myself, something that had gone missing for a long long time.