back on track~~~week three~~~

I didn't go up or down.

Not to shabby considering the large family dinner and the dinner out at a lecture the past week. As well as not managing to exercise at all. On to week four.

back on track~~~week two~~~

Down 2 lbs

I logged everything I ate and watched portion size, but I didn't coun't calories. I am just getting back into the swing of things, I haven't exercised at all either, I haven't wanted to get overwhelmed. In the past I get so fixated on gettting everything right all at the same time that I end up messing up on one thing and next thing you know I endup giving up on all the healthy habits. So one thing at a time. Little goals, so that I don't get overwhelmed by the big picture.

So this week I will start working on the excercise aspect, while still keeping up with consciously thinking about what I am eating.

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

Bob and Jillian

Were pounding me in a Last Chance workout last night in my dream. Or should I say nightmare. Boy they can be mean! I was with the other contestants and we were on the treadmills but they were outside facing the sun! And Bob wouldn't let me get off to put my sunglasses on and Jillian just kept yelling, let go of the handles!

I think it may of been my subconsious's way of letting me know that I should start exercising.

That or Bob and Jillian are really branching out in their motivational techniques.

back on track~~~ week one~~~

Down nine pounds, yeah there is all the christmas weight gone. I know the first week is always a big loss. And then things slow down, But I am not going to start worrying about that yet. I am taking it all one day at a time. Sometimes I get so caught up with thinking how I am just not losing fast enough that I end up feeling like a failure.

370 lbs

Yep I'm an ostritch

Well I have been keeping my head in the sand for the last 6 months or so. Pretending the blog didn't exist, pretending I don't have a weight problem, pretending that the 5, 10, 20, 25 lbs I was gaining wasn't that much. Pretending that I would get back on track "Starting tommorow". Well it has been many many tommorows and only 3 days ago did I start again. I should rename this the yo-yo blog, or the Great Dissapearing Act blog. I am back up to exactly were I started. Or actually above where I started. I am at 379 lbs.

On a positive note I am in a really good place right now. I am pretty happy, things are looking bright. I just have to get on track with weight loss.

This is not a new years resolution. I don't believe in them. Yeah the New year feels like a new start, a clean slate. But I know that I can't just erase all my history all the ups and downs. All I can do is work as hard as I can to achieve the goals I wan't in my life.